PCT Day 1: I Ain’t No Wimp
First off, it’s PHILOSOPHICAL PHRIDAY! And today I pondered what part of myself will I leave behind today?
Well Day 1 was so rough. We started around 11am, and it was clear skies with mid 80 temps. I’m not gonna lie with you, I was not expecting today to be has hard as it was.
Now don’t get me wrong, I never underestimated the trail… I know the trail isn’t easy and takes a lot of grit to thru hike. But I think I think I overestimated myself.
We expected to hit 10-15 miles, and did only 7 miles today, and it was so exerting. I haven’t experienced exertion like that ever... Listen I know what you’re thinking… “It was your first dayy””Don’t be so hard on yourself” etc.. But if you saw me, you would have laughed. Even Gabriel and I were reflecting on my overall attitude over dinner,
I go “man… I was such a wimp today”
Gabriel cringed before he said “Wellll I wasn’t gonna say anything, but I was concerned. I thought you had some grit to ya”
One thing about me, is I ain’t no wimp. And Gabriel and I have been saying a phrase our whole relationship.
I’m tough. I’m strong. AND I AINT NO WIMP. I swear ask him.
So today I am leaving behind the me that acted like a wimp today. My back hurt. My sunburn stung. I was hot with nausea. I would bend over to catch my breath, and stay there for a minute. But eventually I’d regroup myself keep on going.. just to take another 5 steps and bend back over… I mean it was ridiculous.. I promiseee if you saw, you’d be laughing your ass off.
No more wimpy behavior. I AM CHOOSING TO BE OUT HERE. This is a privilege. I have got to get out of the scary headspace that is afraid of the pain. Work on it. Mend it. And let it build you in the place you need to make tomorrow a better day. No wimps allowed.
Despite the day, the evening was perfect. We rested for a while. Shared a delicious dinner together. A homemade dehydrated meal by Amanda (Gabriel’s mom), BBQ Pork and Mashed Potatoes.. yummmmm. Alongside a gorgeous sunset and full moon. We ended things off on a great note. Feeling ready for tomorrow and I’m going to bed way early. See you tomorrow.
So that’s all for today’s entry. I’ll be writing on Storytelling Saturday in the next entry for Saturday 4/12. Thank you so much for reading.
-Belle
